February 2012
2 posts
You get to a state of mind to where no one can understand you. To where any words coming out of your mouth is like a gust of air. Something quiet yet so loud yet so powerful. Something always tells me that exact thing. That exact noise as I call it.. Therefore I cannot describe the feel it leaves me to feel. The feeling beneath it. But lost to nothing
I could be just a body infront of you. An image a perception. I could be your deepest thought. The one lingering over and over again in your head. Telling you what to do or what not to do. I could be a shadow. One with most hearts desire… One that has countless dreams and countless hopes. One that can speak.. A shadow of peace. I for that could be… All that.. You are lookin for. I am...
January 2012
6 posts
Why is it when people are looking for a specific item they need to tell me their life story.
“hi im moving tomorrow, and I need nail clippers to clip my toe nails. I was clipping my cats nails with it and I put them somewhere, and I need them bad. They could be anywhere, in my boxes washroom, or under my bed. Oh no maybe the cat got it. Anyways where can I find them” “me: in...
Wow I feel like I haven’t written anything in a very long time. To be honest ive been lost for a while and last month has been absolutely awful. Full of hurt, cries, screams… 2011 was the worst , hope 2012 is ok.. And I don’t get hurt again
December 2011
3 posts
I feel so lonely lately, lost, confuses, frustrated, alone… Like nothing can make me feel better. I let myself do this and now I’m scared I caved…. Wish I could go back to when I was a little girl. Then I could re make all of my decisions in life. So alone
Your an imagination that I’ve created in my head, something I’ve been searching for a long time. You treat me like I’ve never been treated before. Your smile lights all inside of me! I wish you were here to fix me to make me feel better to make me see and feel how special you are. I’m not crazy, but I’m crazy for you!
November 2011
7 posts
I feel so trapped, so lost inside.. Just alone. I’ve got no one to hold me no one to tell me they love me! Im on a different track.. Different state of mind and I wish I could run away, far away, far where I could be happy, be me and have you with me. No one to judge me or judge my decisions.. No one to keep me in a box and tie me up. I feel as if I need to let go of all of you.. Just run,...
There’s something about you that makes me feel incredible! The way you call me baby , the way you look into my eyes. Theres, an imagination, incredible connection, like I’m that shooting star. I can feel something turning into “us”. I can see me in your arms. It’s incredible how wonderful things can become or will become. For you.. I’ll b there.. For you...
You know when you realize that “I’m gonna do what I want!” Well I’ve realized that.. I’ve realized that I’m gonna love who I want to, be with who I want to and decide on my own what I want in life. Yea people will try to influence me, try to make me change my mind, tell me something different.. But at the end of the day, who is living my life? Me! And who is...
October 2011
20 posts
Been one year since the accident.. Rip senhit
You all frustrate me so much! I’m done
I wish I could portal. To the places I need to be. Somewhere special somewhere real. I wish I could portal
1 tag
“It wasn’t easy telling my family that I’m gay. I made my carefully worded announcement at thanksgiving. It was very Normal Rockwell. I said “Mom, would you please pass the gravy to a homosexual?” She passed it to my father. A terrible scene followed -Bob Smith
Its thanks giving
Today we are celebrating thanks giving. Lots of you are busy watching the jets game. While ill be spending time with my family. My friend had asked me what I’m thankful for, my answer was “nothing” jokingly! Of course I’m thankful for things!
My family, I’m thankful for each and everyone of you. grandparents, cousins, uncles, aunts, brother, sister, mother and dad....
I’ll stand by you. I’ll stand by you. Won’t let nobody hurt you… I’ll stand by you
The words “is everything alright”. Drives me completely insane! I get asked that 3 or 4 times a day! When I say YES!!! I mean yes! Like god, would u like me to say no! That I hate my life! That I wish I were someone else or somewhere else! Would u like me to tell you that I don’t feel comfortable in my own house or with my own family! Yea ok! I’ll tell u all of that next...
From sasha. Always giving me advice. Maybe this one is true…
“Haha mel. I feel the same way. But becauuse were nice . If we go out and find someone there gonna take us for granted. Wait till someone finds u. And fights for u. Thats when u know that they will be yours.”
Dear briana
I miss you so much
September 2011
5 posts
Wish
You wished,
A wish. That I couldn’t answer
A wish that told me something
Better.
A thought that was just enough
For me to wonder.
That wish of yours
I told
You
Its a wish that will never be forgotten.
Because my heart still holds you.
Closer then ever.
I wish I could tell you, what you wanted to hear.
But only our future can see
Only our future will tell.
So don’t hold...
Sometimes, I wish I could go back intime.
August 2011
18 posts
You driving me crazy!
Unwanted
You broke me! But I protected my heart that it didn’t Hurt too bad!! This sort of thing seems to happen over and over again! I’m done dating people.
Has the weekend to myself! Hopefully everything goes as planned!
Holy jesus
